Recommended Reading: Pilgrimage of the Soul by Phileena Heuertz
Richard Rohr states the following in one of his meditations: “I find that many Christians still have no knowledge of the soul’s objective union with God (e.g., 1 John 3:2, 2 Peter 1:4), which all mystics rejoice in or they would not be mystics.” (The Soul’s Objective Union with God Wednesday, March 2, 2016)
I have never heard the term “union with God” in any of the sermons that I have listened to over the years. Yet I realized this was something I was quite curious about.
I read the book Pilgrimage of the Soul: Contemplative Spirituality for the Active Life by Phileena Heuertz. The title intrigued me. Would this book help me to put such an abstract concept and idea into something practical that I could understand?
Phileena details her personal awakening as she trudged through a thirty-three-day pilgrimage on the ancient path of El Camino Santiago in Spain. She wrote, “This season allowed me to give my undivided attention to the movements of my soul.”
I am now at a place of cutting back on outside responsibilities to give my soul desperately needed time to be. I’m not able to walk that path in Spain, but I have chosen to make space for more quiet and reflection.
In the introduction to this gem, Phileena describes these movements in the spiritual journey: awakening, longing, darkness, death, transformation, intimacy, and union. I’m one of these people who prefers to have a road map to visualize the steps I need to take to get to my destination. To my delight, this book provided exactly what I needed.
In the chapter on “union” the author writes, “The spiritual journey offers a similar experience of union fragmented parts of ourselves becoming whole” (p. 168). Later she notes, “The marks of the unitive way are most notably peace, freedom from compulsions and freedom of major agitation. In addition, the individual’s mind and heart are almost continuously fixed on God” (p.170). After having gone through a dark night of the soul, we are now free of our false self and able to give and receive love in a selfless way.
I had an awakening of faith during a period of deep pain in my life. I longed to find the faith of my grandmother to sustain me through the wilderness that lie ahead in the darkness. Then came an agonizing death to an identity built on anger. A transformation of a more integrated self and a peek at the promised land gave me hope to continue on. Now I can see that I am in the movement of intimacy.
Just a few weeks ago I was kayaking on the Kentucky River. Up ahead of me I saw what appeared to be a duck gliding across the rippling water. But as this animal approached the bank, it appeared bigger and bigger. I delighted in watching a fawn crawl up the muddy bank and bound along the river side. This image has stuck with me.
With this picture of the deer in my mind, Psalm 42 jumped out at me. The psalmist writes, “As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.” Now I can place myself on the road map. I am in a season of real longing or thirsting. I resonate with the words of St. Augustine: “My soul is restless until it rests in you alone, O God.”
A few months ago, I spoke to my spiritual director about “trust.” As a pastoral counselor, I know that all relationships are built on trust. But, applying this to my relationship with God, I am drawn to practice a more contemplative experience of just resting in His love. Letting go of the false self requires knowing unconditional love without question. Easier said than done! Phileena writes, “Intimacy is only possible when I trust myself to the One within whom I live and move and have my being (Acts 17:28)” (p. 164). Yes, there is my growing edge.
I wish I had this book years ago. Luckily God knew the way and He has been leading me. But, I do believe He gave the author the wisdom to describe her own spiritual journey in everyday practical language that makes it more tangible.
So, no matter where you are in the movements of the spiritual life, let this book be your companion, knowing that others have gone before you and can illuminate the path ahead of you.
In this spirit of this book, I leave you with this prayer by St. John Henry Cardinal Newman:
O Lord, I give myself to You.
I trust You wholly.
You are wiser than I.
More loving to me than I am to myself.
Fulfill Your high purpose in me,
whatever that be.
Work in me and through me.
I am born to serve You, to be Yours,
To be Your instrument.
I give my will to You.
I ask not to see. I ask not to know.
I ask simply to be one with You in love.