Embracing My Inheritance

My inheritance includes a heritage home. It sits on a beautiful although somewhat overgrown property with gardens overflowing with roses, peonies, daisies, and delightfully scented phlox. The house itself is stately and solid, yet showing the wear of many years’ battle with the elements. The stones are worn in places, metalwork shows signs of rust, paint is flaking in other areas—the patina of having stood the test of time. 

This home feels like a sanctuary as you enter. The luxurious carpet softens your footfall and extends a welcome. The living room has floor-to-ceiling windows overlooking an expanse of lawn and old growth forest. Chairs and couches beckon you to sit and rest, enjoy a coffee and the view. From where it is situated, this room would be cool in the summer and sheltered from the winds in the winter. A library is next door with its high-ceilinged rows upon rows of books handed down from past generations. These volumes contain wisdom of the past—read, appreciated, and passed on. The scent of old volumes and worn leather fills the room and whispers an invite to linger. Embossed velvet draperies create a cocoon for the reader. 

Down the hall is the conservatory, tropical in feel with a profusion of plants, the smell of rich soil, trickling water features, and the warmth of the sun.  This is a place to ponder and to care for the living things growing here.  

An expansive, modernized kitchen has been carefully planned to have beautiful spaces for working as well as sitting down to enjoy the fruits of one’s labour with friends and family. Original carved wooden cabinetry, marble countertops, glistening fixtures—a mix of the old and the new—is pleasing in every way. 

Up a wide, carpeted, winding staircase are the three bedrooms. All are spacious and speak of understated luxury. The master bedroom is a cloud of misty grays and blues with mounds of sumptuous cushions on the bed and settee. It speaks of calmness and serenity, a place of rest and refuge.  

All of this has been left for me, but I live only in the kitchen and master bedroom. The other rooms are locked up, and never entered. 

This is a picture of how I feel growing up in the evangelical church.  

I was brought up in the evangelical tradition and appreciate the ways it taught me to love God and others. It showed me that God was approachable and real. Belonging to this branch of Christianity schooled me in spontaneous expressions of worship and prayer. It also tried to make everything explainable and defendable. I did not sense the “mystery” of God, His holy “otherness,” nor did I see a celebration of the beauty of God. I understand that the beginning of the Protestant movement was a reaction to the abuses and excesses that were occurring in the Church at the time. A departure was needed, but perhaps we went too far.  

It seems that much of the beautiful and rich inheritance we have in the history of the Christian church was ignored, often looked upon with suspicion and even shunned. It was not until I was in my 40s that I heard about the concept of Advent and thought of Lent as something that is open to those outside the Catholic tradition. I hold a degree in religious education, but I did not receive a very broad range of teaching. Some of the things that have stood the test of time such as Lectio Divina, Examen, observing the church calendar and Sabbath, contemplative prayer, and meditation have been kept locked away, and I have only had access to a small portion of my riches.  

I have only just begun to open the doors to the other rooms occupied by my brothers and sisters from the more liturgical branches of Christianity. For instance, I am finding that the practice of holy reading (Lectio Divina) opens up a whole new level of meaning to Scriptures that I may have read numerous times. If my more traditional fellow believers have practices that draw them into deeper intimacy and dependence on God, then I want to incorporate these into my life. There is a beautiful sense of rootedness that comes from participating in practices that have blessed believers for over 2,000 years.  Different ways to celebrate the Eucharist only add to its significance. Knowing that millions of Christians from all branches of the faith are preparing along with me for the coming of Advent or Easter reminds me of my place in the holy catholic church.  

While remaining in my local evangelical church, I am choosing to read from the vast library of wisdom left by those who have gone before, and those considered to be outside of my brand of the faith. I am choosing to embrace my complete inheritance and seek to experience the full riches available to me and to enjoy the communion of all the saints.

I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe.  Eph, 1:18-19

I like to think of myself as a prospector for beauty. Treasure can be hidden under many layers and only requires a prospector to bring it to the surface. I seek to unearth the sometimes-hidden beauty in the garden, home, “one man’s junk”, fibre art and the lives of others. My passion is to reflect God to the world by creating and calling out this beauty. I am a wife, a mother of two, a grateful wanderer of places local and far flung. I have a robust collection of clothes and shoes (boots are a particular weakness). I underline when I read not wanting to miss the gems that others have offered. I have a lifelong relationship with the written word and living Word of God and pursued deeper understanding through post secondary education (Bachelor of Religious Education). “My worth is directly proportional to the amount I produce” was the voice in my head throughout most of my life. This kept me in a state of “doing” and kept me from a deep inner life. I thought time was being wasted if I sat and pondered things for too long. This view kept me busy on the hamster wheel of life, feeling out of control and discontent. It was only when I took time to slow down and listen to my life that I could hear how God was speaking and learn His plan for me. My writing represents a shift from being very active to being more reflective and seeking to be led and refashioned by Jesus.

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